Chapter 30 Losing Control
We all had such a great time camping this weekend. I hated to see it end. The girls had so much fun. Rob even started to relax and enjoy himself. Even the babies had fun!
Once we got home and everything packed up and put away, Rob pulled me to the side and let me know he was going away for a few days.
Rob: “Merri, I hate to do this, but I need to go away for a few days. I need to take care of some business. I’ll make it as quick as I can”
” What? Rob, you have to let go of this. The police say that Moe has disappeared, they haven’t seen anything from him in almost a week. They have traces on all of his phone records and credit cards, he’s not used any since then. They think he must have left the country. They are still working on the case and said they will call as soon as they have an update.”
Rob: “I know, Merri. I’m sorry, but I have to go. I have to look into this.”
“Rob, I don’t understand why you are so obsessed with this! You need to focus on our family. Merri is having a hard time adjusting, she needs you to make her feel safe, she needs you to be here! Please, I don’t want you to go!”
Rob: “Merrilee, please you don’t understand. I have to go. I’m sorry”
I stare at him walking away. I can’t believe he is leaving, after I begged him not to. I have an uneasy feeling in my stomach, something is not right. Rob has never walked away from me like this. I have a bad feeling something is very wrong.
I go back to the compound. I need to figure out what I’m going to do with Moe. I can’t risk him being found, he will try to bring me down with him. I can’t let Merri find out. I push open the hidden door and go down the stairs to the first underground floor where Moe is being kept.
“Get up!” I yell at him.
Moe: “Rob, thank god you came back. How long has it been since you’ve been here? You didn’t leave me any food. I’m so weak. Please, give me some food.”
“I had things I had to do. You’re fine. It was just 3 days, quit whining. I’ll bring you some food, just shut up!”
I go to the kitchen and make some salad. I feel bad that I left him here with no food, but I couldn’t get away. He deserves to suffer anyway. Now maybe he knows what it feels like to be helpless and dependent on someone else to keep you alive.
“Here, eat this salad. It should make you feel better. I have to figure out what to do with you. You have caused so much trouble in my life. I can’t let you go. I can’t keep you here forever either though.”
Moe: ” I promise, I’ll leave the country. Just let me go. I’ll go anywhere you tell me too”
“I can never trust you, Moe. You have to know that! I can’t take that risk”
I leave the room and go downstairs to think of a plan. The only thing I can think of is to make Moe seem like he’s lost his mind. I can give him medication and then convince the police that he is crazy. They will put him in a mental institution and no one will believe anything he says after that. I make a run down to a rough part of town and manage to get what I need. This should be enough to make him confused and look crazy. I’ll get him hooked on this and he will do anything I tell him to do.
I mix the medication into some drinks. I take the glasses upstairs and place them on the table.
“Here Moe, drink this! I made it special just for you”
Moe: ” I don’t think so, I’m not thirsty”
“Just drink it now! Don’t make me mad Moe. You need to drink this, it has vitamins in it and will help you not feel so hungry.”
Moe: ” Alright, I’ll drink it. Just calm down”
Moe: “Oh, what did you put in there. It tastes awful! I feel sick”
“Just shut up, you will like it. It will make you feel good in a few minutes”
Moe: “I don’t understand Rob. Please, I’ll go to the police. I’ll confess to everything. Please, brother! I’m sorry!”
Listening to him say all of that, made me feel like I was going to lose my mind. I’ve never felt such rage before. I yell at Moe, ” Just shut up, you piece of garbage! I can’t listen to your lies anymore. I’ve figured out a plan and you will be locked away in a mental hosptial forever. No one will believe anything you say”
Moe: “You’ve lost your mind Rob. You need to think about what you are doing! There’s no way you can get away with this!”
Rob, ” Argh, just shut up! Quit talking, I hate you!!”
I leap at Moe, I can’t take his talking anymore. I jump on him and start beating him.
Moe: ” Stop, Rob! Please, someone help me!! Ahhhhhh!”
I can’t stop myself, I keep hitting him and punching him in the face. I have to make him stop!
I throw him on the bed and his head bangs up against the concrete wall. He slips off the bed and onto the floor. Finally, he is quiet.
“Get up Moe, go to bed and I’ll be back tomorrow.”
Moe doesn’t get up. He lays broken on the floor. I look at his body so still on the floor. Oh my God, what have I done?