Chapter 36 Deception
When I open my eyes, Ray is looking at me with an odd smile on his face. “Is everything ok? Do I look different?” I say, I’m afraid he’s changed his mind about me and he doesn’t really feel the same as I do.
He takes my hand and shyly places a kiss to my lips, “You’re perfect” he replies.
I wrap my arms around him and pull him in for a longer kiss. It takes my breath away as he picks me up and carries me to the bed. He carefully lays down next to me and says, “Are you sure about this?”
I gaze into his eyes and have just a moment of doubt. I take a deep breath. “Yes, I’m sure. I feel like we belong together” I close my eyes and let him kiss me again. I’m not sure why I have a strange feeling in my stomach, I push it away and think that it is probably just because I’ve not told my family about all the changes I’ve made today.
The next morning I slowly wake up and smell pancakes. One of my favorite breakfast foods. I look over at see Ray cooking breakfast. He’s already dressed and I climb out of bed and sit at the table. I notice he has picked a pretty flower and put it on the table. All my feelings of nervousness have gone, I know I’ve done the right thing.
The next several days pass in a blur. I am running between Ray’s apartment and my place with my sisters. They were quite worried and upset when they seen that I had graduated school early and aged up so quickly. They haven’t met Ray yet, he is quite a loner and isn’t ready to meet my family. Of course, he can only meet my sisters at the moment anyway. With Mom and the twins out of the country and Dad in jail, there seems to be no rush. I sit down with my sisters and try to explain to them how I feel.
Merri, of course had plenty to say, but she soon calmed down and said that she needed to meet this mystery man. She jumped up and gave me a hug. She has always felt like the older sister, she is always so responsible. It’s strange for me to be older than her now.
Robin didn’t have much to say, she thinks I’ve ruined my life by skipping the last few months of high school. “You are going to miss Prom! We were all going to go together and now you’ve ruined everything!” Merri just looked at her and smiled, “We will still go, we will rock the prom!”
I soon move all my things to Ray’s place, no sense in running back and forth when I have been spending so much time there. The next few weeks pass quickly and are wonderful. Ray is everything I imagined in a partner. He’s talking marriage already, although he insists on doing things the right way and say we have to wait till my Mom and Dad are both here to talk to. He wants to ask permission! How romantic!
We have the best time together, Ray has a playful side and this morning we had an all out pillow war. Then spent the rest of the day cuddled up on the couch watching movies, and well, pretending to watch movies.
Soon after I get the nerve up to tell Mom about my new life. I hop on the computer and hope to catch her online. No such luck, so I send her an email and give her all the details…, Well, almost all the details!
I know she will be happy for me, after all she has been through she just wants her family to be happy. I hope that she will come back home soon. It’s not fair to Dad that she has run away. I don’t tell her that in the email, just ask when she is coming home. I tell her I miss the boys and feel like I’m missing their entire childhood.
The next morning, I wake up and I’m not feeling well at all. I try to remember what I had for dinner last night. Just a salad, I wonder if the dressing was bad. I think it tasted just fine. Hope I’m not coming down with something.
I still feel sick the next several days, so I stop off at the hospital to get a check up. Turns out it isn’t the salad! I’m sure you have figured it out by now, but I’m gonna have a baby! I can’t wait to tell Ray. I’m sure he will be as excited as I am. I really wish we were married already, but I guess it’s to late to worry about that now.
I fix a special dinner for Ray when I get home. He has been looking for work, but not many places will hire him. Being a ghost has it’s downsides I guess. As soon as Ray walks through the door, I tell him the news. “Ray, I know why I’ve been feeling so bad lately. We are going to have a baby!” Ray is stunned then a huge smile spreads across his face and he gives me a big hug. “That’s great news!”
“I think we should keep this quiet for awhile, let’s not tell anyone”, he says. I’m not sure what to think about that, “Why, are you ashamed of me? Why can’t we tell at least my sisters?” I say. “We don’t want anyone to try and make you get rid of the baby, let’s wait till at least you are too far along for that” Ray says. “My family would not want that, they will love the baby just as much as they love me. That’s a crazy idea!” I cry, tears have slipped down my cheeks.
“Just trust me on this, alright. You need to do what I say now. You belong to me and that is my baby you are carrying” Ray yells at me. I’ve never seen him like this before. I don’t understand. “Of course, Ray. Whatever you say. We can wait awhile, that’s fine.” I turn away and walk to the bathroom. I close the door and let the tears come. I don’t know why he is acting this way. I take a quick shower and walk back into the living room. Ray is sitting on the couch watching television. “Goodnight, Ray. I love you!” I say quietly before turning toward the bed. He doesn’t even respond to me, only sits there looking at the tv. I fall asleep quickly and dream of my beautiful baby that will soon be here.