Chapter 63 Forgiveness?
I can’t believe what just happened. John, Rob, and Chad rescued us from Moe. John is a werewolf, that has to be why he ran away. If only he would have told me first, we could have worked through this. Did he really think I wouldn’t love him if I knew the truth? The doctors checked Matthew and Maxie out and they seem fine, Matthew was just a little dehydrated so they are giving him IV fluids overnight but should be fine to go home in the morning. I sit in the rocking chair and rock the baby while Matthew sleeps.
I’m so relieved to be away from Moe. I asked the doctor to do a pregnancy test, just in case. Luckily, he said the results come back negative. I feel so guilty that I gave in and was with Moe that night, but it was like I couldn’t help it. I felt like I couldn’t control my own actions. Dr Greene asks me if I’d like to speak with a counselor, but I refuse at this time. I just want to move on and forget. I have no feelings for Moe left at all now, unless you count hate. I’m dosing in the chair when I sense someone else in the room. I open my eyes and see John standing in the doorway.
I can feel tears pouring down my face, he walks over and gets down on his knees. He lays his head on my lap as I cry. “I’m so sorry, I’m sorry, please forgive me..”, he begs. I lay my hand on his head and he raises up. “Why did you leave me? Is it because of what you are?”, I ask.
He nods his head, “I feel horrible about being a werewolf, I hate what I am. Then, when you told me you were pregnant, I freaked out. I knew there was a chance that the baby would be a wolf too, it scared me. I didn’t know how to tell you. I’m so sorry! Do you think you will ever be able to forgive me?” I look down at my baby and cry even more. I never even thought about her having the wolf trait. I avoid his question unable to stop worrying about the baby. “She looks fine, but how do you tell in an infant?”, I ask him. “Usually, signs will show up when they get about 1 or 2. There are special blood tests that can be done if you want, but we will probably find out soon anyway.”, he says. I stand up and hand the baby to him, “John, this is your daughter, Maxie Jean Smith.”, I say to him.
He holds his hands out and nervously takes her from me. A look of wonder crosses his face, he smiles down into her little face and she smacks him with her little hands, he laughs and tickles her belly. After a little bit, he lays the baby in the crib next to her brother and walks closer to me. He says, “Can you ever forgive me for running out on you, Matthew, and Maxie? I love you Summer, this has been the worst time in my life. I’ve been miserable without you, but I thought you were better off without me. Please, forgive me.I honestly thought I was doing the right thing. I know now that I was so wrong.”, he begs.
I wrap my arms around him and hug him tight, ” I think we can work things out, but I need to know that you are here. That you aren’t going to take off again when things get rough.”, I tell him. “I promise you. I will never leave you again. I love you so much Summer”, he says. He places a shy kiss on my lips and I pull him to me and kiss him longer and deeper.
I hesitant and pull away from him, “I need to tell you something though and you may not want me after this, but I don’t want to start this relationship with any secrets. So, when Moe kidnapped me, he… I …. um, we were intimate… I guess. He didn’t force me physically, but it was like I couldn’t stop myself. I didn’t want too, but I didn’t have control over what I was doing. I tried to resist… at first. I’m so sorry, I feel terrible about it.”, I say.
I’m crying so hard, I can barely finish what I’m saying. I see him grasping his hands together, trying to keep control. “Summer, that wasn’t your fault. Vampires have mind control powers, that’s why you felt like you didn’t have control. Because you didn’t, he may as well have held you down and forced you, you couldn’t have stopped him either way. I’m so sorry that happened to you. I don’t blame you for one minute of that, he is completely responsible. I’m responsible, this never would have happened if I had been here. I can promise you that you have nothing to fear ever again. I will protect you and our family. I blame myself as much as Moe. “, he says adamantly. He stays with us for the rest of the night and I have a feeling he won’t be far away from me ever again.
Rob is here sitting at my bed side. The kids just left and I’m worn out.
I’m staying in the hospital at least over night due to dehydration and some injuries I sustained when Moe beat me. I have 2 broken ribs and a concussion. Rob has been beside himself with worry, he didn’t realize I had been injured when they rushed in to save us. He won’t tell me what happened to Moe, but just says that he has been taken care of. I’m not sure I like the sound of that, but he is adamant that he not tell me. I’m just glad to be safe and glad that Summer and her kids are safe. It really was a blessing in disguise about John, who would have thought that the reason that made him leave Summer is the one thing that could save us. Maybe he won’t feel so bad about his condition now. I try to sit up and I moan a little, “What’s wrong? Are you ok? What do you need?”, Rob asks quickly as he jumps up. “Nothing hun, I’m just trying to sit up a little. I’m tired of laying down.”, I say. “No, you need your rest, now lay right back. I can rub your back or your feet if you want.”, he says. “No, I’m ok. Just bored.”, I smile at him. He wiggles his eyebrows, “Maybe I can think of something to keep you occupied”, he says. I laugh and say, “I’m not sure I’m up to that just yet, but give me a day or two!” He leans down and kisses me gently. He is the best husband anyone could ask for.